I Be Old Tiem

[joules_burn]

Sometimes, I still manage to kind of surprise myself with my own reactions to things. Usually not to the good things, no! One takes credit for those! Wears them proud!

But the bad things. Like picking up too much nasty slang like a teenager on the net and sounding like an actual prick instead of just a joking one.

This one, though, just speaks to me, baby. I just realized I knee jerk into thinking people are lying when they talk about 'what family is for'. More specifically, when they say all the positive, supportive, helpful shit 'family is for'. Even when I stare and know, know that this is a person who really believes it and follows through with that belief.

Then I just realize 'shit son, you should never have no kids. You got issues!'

Also, herniated discs, but this is a supporting argument!

Comments

[ljfrostfire]

Much like my reaction to people who spend lots of time with their family. On purpose. And seem to enjoy it, depend on it even. Crazy, crazy fools!

[juushinkan.livejournal.com]

Hell if I know! Well, I can't say that entirely. I'd live with my sister and her family. But the rest of it, I'd rather be sitting on my couch. Honestly, in a lot of aspects, I think of friends as far more 'family.' We at least have things in common.

Let's be dysfunctional together!

[ljfrostfire]

Yay, dysfunction!

Wait, isn't that supposed to be bad?

[juushinkan.livejournal.com]

Is it? Then I say we appropriate it and reinvent it into something more fun! It'll be our dysfunction!

[sherrasama.livejournal.com]

I dunno, if anything, I've grown closer to my family since I moved to Florida. Anyone can look back at this journal and see what a terrible relationship me and my mother had when I was a teenager but we've come to depend on eachother now since she trusts my opinions and I still require needing to feel like the kid since I'm so in charge of all my shit here. My sister has mellowed out a bit these days too.

It's easy to feel bitter about the past but it only takes remembering how hard it was losing one parent to dread when the day comes to lose the other. It's all a matter of perspective I suppose.

[juushinkan.livejournal.com]

Me, not so much. Neither of my brothers are much for the family gatherings, either, so we really don't talk. I don't have a single thing in common with his wife or much in common with my cousin. They're both just. Really girls. One is a massive type A and acts all upper middle class and if you have any problems her entire basis for advice is bootstrap arguments. Not only that, but she holds herself back. I've always been able to tell. Her whole family is like that. Being prim and proper and not themselves, because then they wouldn't be perfect enough.

My cousin is just emotional. None of them have ever shown a great deal of interest in anything I try to explain or say. My mom talks over me like I'm not even talking at all, and I just stop trying to say things. So I just stare off into space at every gathering.

Etc, etc etc. My mom is crazy. Talking to her is just to make her feel better. She wants to help, at least, or whatever, but she has nothing really to give. And she drives me insane in every way possible. My dad is just selfish and sends his holiday cards with some cash as his love. He just wants to live the other life he created, so more power to him.

Maybe I'd feel more towards them if any of them really did take my opinion for shit, but they really kind of trivialize the shit out of whatever I say. They still talk down to me like a child, or like there's something wrong with me because I'm not like them. The only time my brother and his wife took any real interest in me is when I got super skinny in high school. Then they were proud of me. So, if I really cared about appearances, maybe. But fuck that, I still wouldn't want to hang out with them on that basis. 'Your material and aesthetic quotient has finally reached a high enough percentile for us to deem relevant!'

Not to mention they act like any plans I make are worthless. They call me the day before something they've planned for two weeks to tell me I should be there. After all this time, I just sort of assume they don't want me there and know I'll tell them no. I've got other plans. Then they can not have me there and make it look like I'm the asshole. Whatever.

[sherrasama.livejournal.com]

You can borrow my mom once in a while like Christine did 8[ she's cool.